:: Caca Merba ::

Hey bloggy.

Enough said by the title,this entry would be a caca merba one.
I dun even know if i spell it rite,but yea that`s the words i mean.
This entry is consist of a few events that had taken place for the past 1 week.

Lets start up with the interview I had.
Went to KL with Mr BF,at night we visited his old fren back in UK.
Were talkin,talkin and talkin,we dint realize it was midnite.
Rushed back to the hotel and started preparing for the big day.
Need not to mentioned what happened at the hotel but we couldnt sleep till 7am.
hehe.
Woke up at 730 to get ready.
Thanks to MAC my make up that day was so cunnn giler!
Maunye tak cun aku berhabis dekat 600!!!!*shhh*
For the first time in mylife Mr BF said that I looked hot with make up on.
He usually like me lookin natural.
So everythin was ready I was very nervous.
On our way to the hall,we saw loads of hot supermodel-looking girls headin the same direction.
I was still okay till I went for the 1st screening.
I had to reach 212cm on tiptoe, but I failed.
I could only reach 209cm.
I was rejected.
Went out to Mr BF.
Told him.
He thought I was kiddin.
Till he saw the tears on my eyes.
Before we came for the interview,he measured for me and he said I could reach 220.
Which honestly,I doubted it.
But I dint tell.
So that was it.
I failed before I even started.
Went back to the room,I cried my heart out.
Thanks to Mr BF for bein a very good listener and supporter.
I called up to Mama,and to BFF in Aussie.
BFF sounded sick though.
Sorry I didnt ask how were you doin.
I was so upset by then.
Mak pasrah tapi mak marah okay??!!


This was how I looked in the hotel room.
Meroyan okay!!Sib baik Mr BF cam handsome masa tu..apa kena mengena??

After so much of talkin,convincin,gatain abit here and there.
We came out with a decision that we need to forget the past and move forward.
Then we also decided to drop by Zoo Negara to have fun with Mr BF`s relatives.

We had soooo much fun there.
The best was thissssss fav animal of mine.



I was so the very2 gedik melompat lompat tak hengat lupa segala gundah gulana when i saw this peacock.
Seriously I wish I could adopt one.
Then we came back to Penang.
It was good that eventhough I failed but I had a good time with him in KL again.

Back to work on Monday.
Bosses are like shit.
Well I dun even know how to describe them here.
But I have decided that I`ll tender my resignation next Monday.

But I have received an offer to join a free lance project for a year.
That I thought was not a bad idea afterall coz I have nuthin to lose.

And last nite.
I`ve met up with an old friend.
Sumthin happened between us coz of sekor batu api yang kecik2 tanak mampos,besar2 menyusahkan org!!
But everything was cleared between us last nite and she could help to find me a job as well.

Last words,
GOD IS GREAT!!

:: Untitled ::

its 4.27 pm.
at greenlane`s mc d.
the purpose of bein here is to update my cv.
and read some blogs and tips on how to do well on my interview this weekend.
but here i am.
chattin,facebookin,chattin,emailin,chattin again.
owh yea the cv updatin has been done a while back.
but the blogs readin has not been done yet.
hehehe.

was chattin with a bff who is in aussie.
we were talkin about make up!!
somethin that i am not very sure we have ever talked about before.
but it was cool that she was tiba-tiba gedik wana try on Bobbi Brown.
knowin her,i never thought she would be talkin about it at all.
coz her face always look natural without make up.
oi aku tak kata ko chantek pun okay?hahaha.
p/s : again i wana tell that i love ur venus n mars entry!



well i actually dun even know wats the purpose of this entry.
im just in a lazy mode to do anythin for now.
meetin up with shanana soon to go for eye brow threadin also manicure & pedicure.
mr boyfren texted me sayin "b..keep fit okay?".
coz i am supposed to be on diet still for the big interview.
but how do i tell him that ive walloped these?!




and these??



well yea i did consume all of that!!
even bff did tell me to on diet.

am fat.
i am fat.
i am really fatttt!!

:: I Am Sad ::

hey bloggy.

i am not happy now.
i was in the morning but m no more.
life is unpredictable.
you`ll never know what will happen to u in the next minute.

yesterday was valentine`s.
when most ppl were havin good times with their partner.
i was arguin with mine.
once in the morning.
and once in the evening.
wonder what was wrong with us.

today.
it was good in the morning.
went for brunch.
then went for shopping.
again had some misunderstanding.
coz i bought a black dress recently.



somethin that i wanted so much since, god knows how long back.
he didnt like it but he was konon2 behavin like a white man.
when he said "it was unique".
coz he didnt like it.

for him.
the dress was not suitable for my interview.
but i was not sayin that i wanted to wear that.
i was just hopin that my so called other half would suggest sumthin nice for me.
not that i even asked him to pay for it.

but we argued.
for something.
he said that "you cant always depends on others` says.you are the prime minister of your life.u should stand up for what u think is right".

but when i stood to what i thought was right.
he then said that he was afraid to comment on me.
coz i was a type of person who didnt take other`s opinions.
i always liked to argue.

so what was he tryin to say to me?!

he told me that i was a liar.
coz i had savings without his knowledge.
coz he said he drafted his budget in front of me.
so i replied "that was becoz u wanted to buy sumthin expensive.otherwise u wouldnt tell".
well yea,he didnt even tell how much claims he got.
instead,he lied.
but he was questioning the savings i had and said i was a liar.
becoz he said that i always spent my money on my 10 ringgit clothes,and stuffs.
he asked what did he spent on himself for the past 2 years.
it was a killer question for himself actually.
he should know what he spent on.
the most important thing was that,i spent my own money.
and he spent his.
in fact all the good food we had for the past few months were on me!(sorry tak de niat nak mengungkit okay?!)
what was there to argue about?!!
i didnt disturb others.

he said what ever decision that he made for me was becoz he himself had gone through bad times.
had shit life.
so he didnt want anything like that to happen to me.
fair enough.
thanx for your concern.
but then y kept tellin me that i was a prime minister of mylife and i could decide?
while the truth was the other way round.
i couldnt decide on alot of things in my life.
but i didnt think too much coz i thought "this is not only about me.this is about us".

well.
it`s very complicated i know.
but i need to let my feelings out.
all i asked was an opinion from an important person of my life.
i didnt even know h0w could things went this far.



p/s : kalau aku sexy cam eva mendes dgn boobs besau cenggini mesti ko tak kata aku mcm2 kan?

:: Wallah!! ::

Wow!!
The very first entry of my own blog.
I cant believe I have one now.
Well yea I had one like 1000 years back.
That was di zaman jahiliah la kan.
Now its new.new.and new!

For a start I am very excited to share a pic
of my dream place on earth that I really wanna
visit (or should I just admit that I wish I could call her 'HOME' one day?!hehe.)

Presenting..




Welcome to the world of Tush`s!!