:: I Am Sad ::

hey bloggy.

i am not happy now.
i was in the morning but m no more.
life is unpredictable.
you`ll never know what will happen to u in the next minute.

yesterday was valentine`s.
when most ppl were havin good times with their partner.
i was arguin with mine.
once in the morning.
and once in the evening.
wonder what was wrong with us.

today.
it was good in the morning.
went for brunch.
then went for shopping.
again had some misunderstanding.
coz i bought a black dress recently.



somethin that i wanted so much since, god knows how long back.
he didnt like it but he was konon2 behavin like a white man.
when he said "it was unique".
coz he didnt like it.

for him.
the dress was not suitable for my interview.
but i was not sayin that i wanted to wear that.
i was just hopin that my so called other half would suggest sumthin nice for me.
not that i even asked him to pay for it.

but we argued.
for something.
he said that "you cant always depends on others` says.you are the prime minister of your life.u should stand up for what u think is right".

but when i stood to what i thought was right.
he then said that he was afraid to comment on me.
coz i was a type of person who didnt take other`s opinions.
i always liked to argue.

so what was he tryin to say to me?!

he told me that i was a liar.
coz i had savings without his knowledge.
coz he said he drafted his budget in front of me.
so i replied "that was becoz u wanted to buy sumthin expensive.otherwise u wouldnt tell".
well yea,he didnt even tell how much claims he got.
instead,he lied.
but he was questioning the savings i had and said i was a liar.
becoz he said that i always spent my money on my 10 ringgit clothes,and stuffs.
he asked what did he spent on himself for the past 2 years.
it was a killer question for himself actually.
he should know what he spent on.
the most important thing was that,i spent my own money.
and he spent his.
in fact all the good food we had for the past few months were on me!(sorry tak de niat nak mengungkit okay?!)
what was there to argue about?!!
i didnt disturb others.

he said what ever decision that he made for me was becoz he himself had gone through bad times.
had shit life.
so he didnt want anything like that to happen to me.
fair enough.
thanx for your concern.
but then y kept tellin me that i was a prime minister of mylife and i could decide?
while the truth was the other way round.
i couldnt decide on alot of things in my life.
but i didnt think too much coz i thought "this is not only about me.this is about us".

well.
it`s very complicated i know.
but i need to let my feelings out.
all i asked was an opinion from an important person of my life.
i didnt even know h0w could things went this far.



p/s : kalau aku sexy cam eva mendes dgn boobs besau cenggini mesti ko tak kata aku mcm2 kan?