:: Where Would Be Your Dream Holidays? ::

Heya Bloggy,

Today is my last day at work.
Am alone in the office now.
Waiting for Mr Director to come and pick me up.
We`re meeting this one Chinese sensei or sumthin la.

Being a lazybum as usual.
I`ve been reading my fav blogs on the net.
Fav means really fav & fab!!
Thee hee.
I wouldn`t know whether their stories are true.
But yea I just like reading their writings.

I read this one blog of a lovely lady.
A Malaysian settling down in the city of Dublin.
With her hubby & 2 lovely kids.
The collection of arm-candies I am telling youuuuuuu.
Fuh!!!!
I wish I had at least one of them.
Hahaha.

Okay.
Coming back to the point.
I thought of writing on my dream holidays.

Well let`s start up Mr BF`s place of a dream holiday.
A place he always wanted to go for his honeymoon actually.
[But not with me unfortunately :( ]
Well he used to tell me about this when we first started up.
But now I think he has changed his mind.
Not that he doesn`t wana go anymore.
But simply becoz he doesn`t wana get married!!
So there`s no honeymoon there.
Hahaha.
God bless you Mr BF.
If ever u get to know about this blog.
[Which I think we would have been separated by the time u do.]
I am still praying that you could make it there,one day.
I have loved you.
I still love you.
And I will always do.

The place that I am talking about is none other than this heaven on earth.

                                      Bora-Bora Island

And let`s carry on with places I`d always like to go to.
1st of all.

                                  Al-Hambra Palace in Spain

I simply have this urge of being there.
Since I first read a novel that I`ve forgotten the title.
Hehe Silly me.
But hey.
The love story.
And the descriptions of the places in Spain.
Are simply awesome.
Too long for me to write here.
Please ask Uncle Google to tell you the stories.
(Aku cite pasal tempat ni in one interview I attended.
Pastu terus aku kene reject u olls!)

2nd.

                                              Dubai UAE
      
Dubai.
I`ve told you this in my 1st entry.
I wish I could call her home.
But unfortunately coz of some helpless circumstances.
My dream was shattered.
And I saw myself crying on the very day my spirit was high up.
That`s aside.
If I couldn`t get to stay there.
I could still go for a holiday.
Tu pun kalau ada duit.
Insya Allah.

3rd.

                                            Disneyland

It will be any kiddo`s dream.
To be going to this kids` heaven.
Since I was a budak comel kid.
Me and adik used to tell each other.
How great would it be.
If we could at least step on this wonderland.
And see all the cartoon characters we`ve grown up watching on tv.
I am still a big fan of Disney Channel on Astro.
Perhaps for the fact that I never make it to Disneyland.
What a sad story!!

4th.

                                                Bali

Bali is also the place I`ve been wanting to go.
For the past 2 years.
Zaman jahiliah moda2 berchenta dgn Mr BF.
We always used to plan to have a holiday here.
But have to wait for big commission lah,palotak lah!
As we were working in this International company(sgt la).
That gives big commission for a deal u closed.
Tapi bapak hapa pun tak jadi.
We left the company over night.
With a 24 hours resignation.
Hahaha.
Thanks to Tom & Jerry (Bukan nama sebenar).

5th.

                                                  Paris

Hahaha.
Kelakar tak hengat!.
I`ve been telling someone who used to be closed to me.
(Who ended up maki-hamun sumpah-seranah aku sbb aku reject dia)
That this place kunon2 like romantic lah.
But I`ve watched a movie.
Where this magnificent building was crashed to the earth.
Fantastico!!
Sambung cite about that someone.
He started telling.
"We`ll go there for our honeymoon,baby!"
Last2 aku kene maki kow2.
Muahahaha gelak syaitonnnn.
Now he has ended his zaman belegam bujang.
With a pompuan who was also belegam bujang.

Nak je aku sambung 18 tempat lagi.
But Mr Director has been asking me to take my lunch 1st.
I am typing this while I am lying on this nice,cozy couch.
Argh I am so gona miss this lovely condo!

P/S :  This office dekat condo yek!
         And cite bnyk2 pasal dream places pun tak guna.
         Balik2 aku pegi Bangkok,Spore,KL,KL,KL,KL dan KL.
         Haizzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

:: A Friend In Need Is A Friend Indeed ::

This entry is supposed to be up yesterday.
But half way I was drafting. 
I felt hungry and sleepy.
Then I left for home.
Muahaha.

Well.
This entry is dedicated to a very good dearest friend of mine.
My BFF in aussie.
Sila balik malaysia.
Dan jangan mengada-ngada tentang perubahan cuaca dan kulit anda.
Ever dearest BFF,
I want to say thank you so much for being there for me.
At all times.
Regardless of the distance.
Bunyi macam dok jumpa padahal hari2 dok chat je!
Donia di hujung jari anda.
 
We have so much differences.
You`re a much tua kertu elder.
While I am sangat muda belia younger.
You`re gemok gedempol chubby and cute.
While I am Kim Kardashian very sweet and chantek.
You`re so successful in life.
While I am terpele`ot dah still doing job-hopping.
You`re abroad and I am still here.
But one thing for sure.
We do understand each other in every single way.
We have gone through bad times in life.
And you`re the one I`ll turn to when ever I need someone.
 
Boyfriends come and boyfriends go.
Samples come and go.
2nd line of this paragraph adalah pasal ko semata-mata.
Hahaha.
You know I know lah!
But you`re always there for me.
Coz I know.
It`s not easy for you to go away.
You`re too berat good as a friend.
I know u will never leave me alone.
And I know that u cant run but your tutttttt can.
 
With you.
I can share anything,everything.
I cried talking about my problems to you.
You cried on the phone few times and telling me your stories.
I couldn`t understand a f*cking single word you were mumbling.
Tapi takot nak cakap.
Nanti ko baran pulak kene buat siaran ulangan.
Huhuhu.
 
You`re now married.
With a kertu good man who keeps you happy.
I still remember how I used to cross on my calendar.
Counting days for you to be syaitonnnn married.
I am happy that you`re still with the same kertu good man.
 
For us.
Age is not a limit.
Age is just a number.
Thank you for accepting me.
As a friend of yours.
I love you.
And I will always do.

:: Penting Ke?! ::

Bloggy Love,

At times I hate my working hours.
Well not that I usually love them.
Except for the time that I get to chat,FB-ing,lepaking work hard.
Muahaha.
But now I feel even worse.
My bosses still cant take the fact that I am leaving.
My last day should be next Friday.
Sangat lah eksaited okay!!
Tak payah dah nak calling2 my clients asking
"Incik Customer..how are you doing today?You nak pi holiday ke?Kat mana?Ngan sapa?"
While my heart says
"Mampos Suke ati la hang nak pi holiday..ada aku kesah?!"

But for the past few days.
I`ve been attending free lectures on how to be positive.
How to think long term.
How to fight no matter what obstacle comes.
How to make full use of Mr BF`s money.
Okay the last part is a bit exaggerated.
Oups!

Cant they just take the fact that I am leaving?
Well yea I told them that I have not been feeling well lately.
Which is true.
I even showed them the brochure given by my gynecologist.
With the title "Cervical Cancer".

Bangang punye gyne!

But they refused to let me go.
In the morning I attended a lecture conducted by Mr Director at our nice pantry.
He finally accepted that HELLO I AM LEAVING!!
Too bad the next minute Mr CEO came in.
And unfortunately the lecture was continued.
He kept saying on how much we are a small family.
How we should back each other up.
How we should not give up on life.
They have given me loads of proposals as long as I am willing to stay.
Some of the proposals sound like these :-

1) You cant wake up early in the morning?
   Fineeeeeee..u come at 10-11 or anytime u want.
   U tell us what will be your best time.

2) You have problems working with us?
    We`ll improve..we can try to change for us to work together.
    (MY BOSSES WANNA CHANGE FOR ME???WTFFF???!!)

2) You dont want to come in the morning?
    No problem..u come at 1pm.
    (Wowww..hang pa ada ke bosses mcm aku?!)

3) You dont like going out to do sales?
    Small kacang..u stay in the office and do some support.
    When you`re ready to go back to the field,then u go!

4) You dont feel like coming to work?
    Call us up and u can work from home.
    (Jeng Jeng Jeng!!)

5) You don want to work from Monday-Friday?
    Then you come from Monday-Thursday.

6) You dont like what you`re doing now?
    You can do support.In-house job.
    Dont like in-house job?
    Go to work at ***(our retail biz) then u can lepak.
    It`s not hectic there.
    You dont want there?
    I open up a branch for *** in ** and you go take care of the shop there.
    (Gilaaaaa...boss aku kene mandrem ke apa??!!)

7) You need a break?
    Take unpaid leave for a month.
    After that call us and tell if you wana come back.
   (I am sooo gonna take this..then cabuttttttttttttttttttttttttt!!)

Thats not it yet.
Mr CEO told me.
"With your health condition.
Nobody will take you.
But when nobody wants you.
I want you.
Even when your BF doesnt want u.
I still want you.-->>(Wowwwwwwww 8 juta kali)
We` are family.
I will never let my people go."

Am I supposed to be syahdu impressed?
Why do they need me so badly?
For one thing for sure.
Government accounts!!

Where can you find someone like me?!
(Dgn riak dan gelak syaitan..muahaha)

:: Why does it take too long to be Friday again? ::

Again at the balcony.

Malas bekerja.

Bored.
Thought of meditating for abit.
Before the class tonight.
Tapi mcm malas panas la pulak!
Tunggu kejap la.
Alasan!!
 
Job.
Wanted to tell Mr Director that I am no longer staying.
But whole morning he was busy and he still is.
In fact he`s out.
M left in the office with MR CEO now.
He thought m staying.
He started asking me to create some new proposals with charts and graphs.
Which is okay.
I can try to get it done.
Dia kata nak formula bagai.
Bila type 1,terus suma calculation is automated.
Mampos la aku.
Adakah dia ingat aku sgt terer?
 
Last nite.
Went to see my gynecologist again.
Had some lab tests and the result will be out on April 5th.
Praying hard that I dun get cervical cancer.
I am dead serious.
I am praying!!
Ye ke?

I need to do more cleansing.

:: It Worked!! ::

Bloggy Love,

It worked!!
It worked!!
It worked on Botak (bkn nama sebenar).
Hahaha.
I tried so hard and it worked.
OMG!!

P/S : This entry is mainly for the remembrance of the 1st time `it`
         worked out well.
         Hope to see many more coming.
         Owh yea,1st day of MAE too.

:: Hidup Ini Indah ::

Hey Bloggy,

M feeling a bit better after meditating.
To BFF,if you ever read this,dont worry.
Aku tak buat mende2 syirik.
Allah itu Satu.
Aku sentiasa tau.

It`s 521pm.
At the balcony of my soon-to-be-called ex office.
Looking at the sky.
The ocean.
The hills at the mainland.
Teringat kat Gunung Jerai.
Indahnya ciptaan Tuhan.
Allahuakhbar.

Hehe.
Suddenly having this meroyan feeling-feeling jiwang kan.
Been feeling loads of this lately.
Nak mati ke aku?
Amal tak pernah cukup.
Dosa?
Hanya Tuhan yang tahu.

I need courage.
I need strength.
Nah,now I sound just like the b*tch next to my room.
She`s hypocrite!
She lies a lot and she creates hatred among friends.
She`s evil.
She misused my money.
Mr BF`s money actually.
Pardon me,but satu sen duit tu pun takkan aku halalkan.
Itu hal engkau dgn Tuhan.
She`s a self-centered b*tch.
Well,who I am to judge?
I dont even know what is she going through.
But still,haizzz.
I forgive my thought,I forgive my thought.
I forgive.

Mr BF.
I miss the old you.
I miss the guy I used to know back in ME.
I miss the man who used to make me feel special.

Kenapa perlu selalu meroyan?
Tanya hati.
Tak sakit pun.
Cuma.
Sentap sahaja.


Kenapa sentap?
Sebab meroyan.
Kenapa meroyan?
Now we`re back to the square one.

Haizzz.

P/S : Hidup ini indah.
        Sila tgk permandangan laut Gurney yang sedang aku nikmati.

:: March 10th 2010 ::

empty.
i feel very empty today.
thanx bff for spending your time chatting with me.
pasni kene letak entry manja2 gatai since si chenta hati kertu ko dah tau blog tu!oupps!!

mr bf.
i miss him lately.
eventhough he`s always there for me.
but since he practices a lot of yoga and meditation these days.
he doesn`t really speak much.
i know i used to tell him to change for a bit.
coz he tends to speak his mind out without thinking that he could hurt others.
and now he has changed.
but that`s it.
i miss the old him.
at times.
he`s too cool.
i dun feel the excitement.

mama.
i pity her.
she has to bare with all the morons at home.
who do not take her feelings into consideration.
at all.
ma.
i love you.
i will take care of you.
i wish those morons would realize that they are no ones without you.

papa.
you`ll never change.
you hurt mama so much.
you dont care about her.
you dont care about the family.
you dont feed the us.
you`re a bad man on earth but what to do.
you`re a father of mine.

adik n ayish.
you`re hurting mama so much.
you`re too rude with her.
dont you ppl realize if she is not there you`ll be dead?
who will take care of you?
who will give you money?
who will feed you?
papa?
dream on!

hearing mama out everyday hurts me so much.
but i am the only one she has left.
i feel very empty.

ma.
i love you so much.

p/s:happy bday J.