:: Sila Buang Telephone Anda ::

How do you feel when your call is not returned?

Or your texts are not answered?

When you really need to confirm things with someone?

Have you ever experienced this kinda thing?

I have had sooo many of this!

I just don’t understand why people can be so self-centred at times!!

You always have your phone with you 24/7 but you can`t reply to text msgs?!

Bollocks!

Kalau skali dua tak pe.

Ini slalu.

Padahal handphone slalu depan mata.

Menyakitkan hati sungguh kalau ada bende penting nak kene settle.

Org ada handphone ko pun nak ada.

Org tau reply SMS kenapa ko tatau.

Dah jadi pape nak salahkan org.

Bongoks lah!

Kak Kim yg busy pun bley reply SMS aku okay?!

Buang la phone ribu2 tu dalam tong sampah weis!

:: Chris Martin and Yoga ?! ::

This particular song had indeed made a huge impact to my life.
I used to listen to this tune when I fought with my Malay ex.
That was like 4-5 years back.
I found it to be very soothing.
But I did not really understand why.

I then broke up with that Lelaki Yang Bijaksana.
Meroyan jugak la nangis2 bagai.
But there was a friend who was always with me.
To calm me down.
To hear me out.
Tetengok after a while jadik BF aku pulak.
Muahahahaha.

I called him “A”.
Quite a cool man.
Not a Muslim so he openly told me that he likes spiritual things.
But he did not practice any.
Hehehe.
He used to talk about humanity.
Good deeds ; KARMA.

“A” liked Coldplay a lot too.
He made me listen to Coldplay over and over again in his car.
The only tune of Coldplay that I liked was Fix You.
But after listening to them a lot.
I discovered that their tunes are all very soothing.
With deep meanings.
Beside Fix You, I liked Yellow and Viva La Vida so much.

I then broke up with A because of some unfortunate circumstances.
:)
Meroyan lagi coz this time was not because of betrayal or anything bad.
Just because I did not want him to hurt his mother even more.
I had to let go.
Again kept on listening to Fix You.
Since then I had this status on my msn.
“ Lights will guide you home.
And ignites your bones.
I will fix you.”
Till today.
:)

And now.
I still do.
Whenever I listen to Fix You.
I feel very calmed.
With good vibrations.
Hehehe.

Now I am a bit into meditation.
I know ppl would say as a Muslim it is HARAM for me.
To be doing all that.
But mengikut hati saya yang kecik dan tidak pandai ini.
I think there is nothing wrong when I do meditation.
You don’t have to say all the Mantras if you do not want to.
Coz for some it could be misleading.
But it is usually the other way round.
When we know what it means :) .
(Now people might say
"Mantra ko ada masa nak translate.
Quran ade ko translate tak?"
Hehe.)

Meditating without saying a mantra.
All you have to do is to sit comfortably.
Close your eyes and try to clear your mind.
Thoughtless mind would make you feel at peace.
Thoughtless mind would make you lower down your ego.
You can listen to soothing songs while doing so.
Yang penting kita tahu Allah itu SATU.
This is my 2 cents anyway.
Sorry if this statement is too sensitive for others.

Few days back I found this one blog.
Frankly speaking I`ve never heard of Ninie Ahmad.
But after reading her blog.
I can smile with satisfaction.
I finally know why do I like Coldplay`s tunes so much.
Specially Fix You.
It`s all about spirituality.
Chris Martin is a yogi himself.
That`s not something new for some ppl.
But for me.
It`s freaking exciting!!!
The rock star is a yogi!!!

I would like to join BeYoga.
It looks cool.
Always wanted to learn yoga.
But never had the chance to.
Ms Ninie Ahmad.
Will you have any class in Penang, please?
Hehehe.

:: Jangan Diucap Selamat Tinggal ::

I felt abit bored waiting for 7pm.

To go out with Mr Congo`s family for dinner.

Then I browsed on youtube to find this very nostalgic song.

This reminded me of schooling time back then.

I miss those theatre rehearsals.

When we`ll have tears on the cheeks when this song was played.

I miss all the girls.

Sila layan kalau mode anda pun adalah.

DALAM HATI ADA TAMAN.

:: Bila Saya Nak Kawen ? ::

Entry hari ini adalah rojak.

Perasaan bercampur baur.

Just too many things are running on my mind.

At times I find myself tearing for abit.

Meroyan is my middle name.

Hahaha.

But nauzubillah mintak dijauhkan la.

Takot betul2 kene kang .

Mampos!!

Been having this intention of putting up an entry of this.

KAWEN.

Lately loads of friends have ended their single mingle lives.

Just too many of them.

Seronok tgk kawan2 naik pelamin.

Chantek2 di hari kawen.

And of all the wedding I have attended.

Only once I felt like

“OMG..when will my time comes?”

Like.

Honestly!

Haha.

That was on Zulia`s wedding.

Sometime last year.

The rest of the weddings.

I felt like.

Takot gile arrrr  tgk org kawen!!

Having a non-Muslim BF.

I would say that marriage is not something easy.

With my surroundings.

Where I see loads of ppl I love being cheated by their partners.

I feel extremely scared.

And honestly at times.

I feel very grateful that I am not married.

Plus.

There is seriously no plan for marriage for me and Mr BF.

Mr BF is definitely not looking into marriage for now.

And so do I.

I think.

Coz honestly.

I seriously think that he`s not the one for me.

Marriage wise.

And he knows that too.

Haha complicated but that`s the fact.

We`ll just go with the flow.

On the other hand.

Papa has been brainwashing Mama.

Saying that Mama was the one.

Who conditioned the kids` minds not to get married.

Papa has been asking me on when will I get married.

Just because I have been attending my friends` weddings with them.

Most of my friends used to lepak at my place.

And they`re more like a family.

So Papa dok teringin la nak dapat menantu jugak.

Worse was during Achik`s wedding la.

Papa and mama looked at me dgn penuh syahdu atas pelamin tu.

Tapi bukan aku yg kawen.

Aku pengapit je.

Achik sempoi yang kawen.

Achik dgn bestnya dok lambai2 kat Mama.

Bungoks la hang Chik!

Cam nak terajang owh masa tu.

Papa aku syahdu tau tak??

Hehehe.

So that morning when Mama called me up.

Saying Papa cakap

“Kalau Na tak kawen.

Nanti dia dah tua.

Mama and Papa dah tak de.

Sapa nak jaga dia?

Skarang boleh la sakit pening balik sini.

Kalau kita dah tak de Na mcm mana?

Dia sorang je anak pompuan kita.”

Gila aku nangis okayyyyy!!

Walaupun aku tau Papa tu propah je.

Dia nak menantu yg betulnya.

Terdiam je aku masa Mama dok cite.

She even said sorry if she was the one who conditioned me this way.

I told her that it was not her fault.

At all.

It was genuinely my own feelings.

Tapi takkan nak gitau Mama.

“Mama Na dgn Mr BF takkan kawen.
Kami tanak kawen.”

Meroyan Mama aku kang!

So I texted Papa.

Telling him to be patient.

“Kalau ada jodoh nanti adalah”.

Jawapan artist tu!!

I told Papa that my time is just not here yet.

And I also told him not to worry.

Coz he`ll definitely get the chance to greet the guests.

At my wedding!

His reply was simple

“Okay, good that u think that way.”

I hope the day will come, Pa!

Ramai org slalu tanya.

“Bila nak kawen?”

Daripada nak bg jawapan yang dah slalu digunapakai.

Aku jawab

“Saya mmg nak kawen. Cuma tak de org nak kawen dgn saya”.

Boleh?

Hehehe.

Serious la dalam ati aku.

Aku nak kawen!

Tapi bukan sbb tak bley kawen dgn Mr BF je.

Banyak lagi sbb kenapa aku belum nak kawen.

But of coz la sbb utama adalah.

Aku belum ada calon.

:)

Aku baru 25 je pong.

Slalu aku gelakkan Ms D.

Sbb kene bebel ngan umi dan ayah dia.

Skani aku plak kene u olls!

But.

There`s one more thing that I am always excited at.

Much more better than marriage.

Having a baby that is.

Hahaha.

Aku gile kan?

I have always love babies.

The cute ones yea.

I don’t like yang mcm serabai tu.

Mr BF slalu kata aku suka discriminate budak2.

Hehehe.

Yea la dah yg dia tunjuk suma Masya Allah.

Macam Malaysia ni tak de air selama lapanploh tahun untuk mandi!

Since I was small.

I have always had this intention.

Of adopting a baby girl.

Simply because baby girl can be dressed up in so many ways.

Plus all the accessories.

OMG I just want a baby!!

Tanak kawen pun tak pe.

Nak jugak jadi mcm kak Angie.

And I teared reading this blog.

When I read the story of how her baby boy was born.

And so forth.

Haizzz bestnya ada baby.

Tapi mcm mana nak ada baby.

Kalau diri sendiri tak terjaga?

Lapar.

Balik umah Mama.

Bosan.

Balik umah Mama.

Baju kotor.

Balik umah Mama.

Gado dgn Mr BF.

Balik umah Mama.

Haiiii la badan.

Haiiii la nyawa.

:: Perempuan Simpanan ?! ::

Okay.
Now is 1055am and I just got back to the office.
Last nite I stayed over at Mama`s.
Lucky this morning I had something to wear to work.
Hehehe.

So I got to work on time today.
Had to go out to settle some things for Mr MD.
As he will be in KL for few days.
Hoyeh Hoyeh!!

After I settled the things.
I decided to go back home.
Coz my phone`s battery dah nyawa2 ikan.
Afterall my place adalah 5 mins sahaja dari ofc pong!

So I drove in to the compound.
To see a group of Malay men came by a lorry.
Didn`t bother at all.
I parked my car and went up to my place.
I even changed to my jeans.
Thinking that hoyeh hoyeh boss is not in!!
Lalalala.
Grabbed the charger and went down to the car.

As I was walking.
All of the men were looking at me.
Whistling.
They were some contractors kot.
Dok korek longkang bagai.
One of them actually kinda shouted at me.
“Haiiii..nak pi kerjaaa kaa???Soranggg???”
Not wanting to be rude.
I just smiled and turned away.
And continued my walk.
I am not the type yang “friendly”.
Sampai melayan jantan kat tepi jalan!

You know what that man shouted after that?
“ Biasa la pompuan Melayu.
Cina bela.
Dok rumah mahai.
Berlagak gila!
Kalau Cina tu takdak sapa nak SIMPAN dia?”

I heard that very clearly.
But I wasn’t angry.
First was because I thought.
“ Heyyyy ko pandai yek tau aku MELAYU!!”
Terer lah!
And second thought was.
“ Ni la Lelaki Melayu.
Kalau org lain mampu hidup selesa sikit.
Mula nak tuduh macam2.
Org tu simpan org ni simpan.
Tak de pun nak tgk kurang diri sendiri!”

Like.
Really!
Why can`t they just look at themselves.
And start thinking that they have to really work hard.
Because Malay women are improving a lot in their lives.
Because Malay women have loads of things.
That some Malay men don`t possess.
So tanak jatuhkan air muka sbb tak mampu nak jaga diri sendiri.
Dorang tuduh org lain macam2?

Hello Incik Jantan.
What ever I have now is from my own money.
My own hardwork.
Saya tidak disimpan oleh sesiapa.
Apa Incik Jantan ingat kalau Incik Jantan tak mampu nak tinggal kat rumah mcm tu.
Org lain pun tak mampu ke?
Kalau org lain mampu maknanya dorang kene simpan ke?
Bukak la hati bukak la minda wahai Incik Jantan.
Macam ni ke nak buat suami?
Istighfar la banyak2!

:: My Best Friend`s Wedding ::

Heya Bloggy Love!

I`ve not been updating you for quite sometimes rite?

Been quite busy lately.

Plus, honestly.

There`s nuthin to be updated at all.

Except for the past 3 days.

Attended a very good friend`s wedding on Friday.

I was her bridesmaid though.

Gile penat weis jaga dia.

She`s well known as a sempoi person.

Taktau duduk diam langsung.

She walked to the mosque as if she was competing in a marathon.

She sat in the mosque and kept saying

“Kaki aku kebas weiiiii!”

Kuat plak tu!

There are so many unpredictable things have been done by her.

Among those are these 3.

1 - She was sitting when she saw a friend of ours, Nad came in from the side entrance.

What she did?

Dia angkat tangan tinggi2 and said

“Weis!! Pusing mai sini!!!”

Sambil tangan dok tunjuk kot mana nak pusing.

Aku mcm nak lempang pompuan ni.

Lawak gila.

Hahahaha.

2 – When her akad was properly said by the hubby.

I looked at her and ask

“Achik..nak tissue?”

Dia kata

“Tak nangis pun nak buat apa tissue?”

Adehhh!!

Tepet kat blakang dah dok merambu ayaq mata.

Lebih plak si Tepet.

3 – Her mother was sitting beside me.

She pat the mother and said

“Mak..makan dah siap blom?”

Sangat sempoi la pompuan ini.

She was in fact being a very kanak2 riang.

Ambik pics sengeh2 suma.

On her Persandingan Day.

Sama la jugak dia angkat tangan tinggi2 kat suma org.

Atas pelamin pun sama.

Dia lambai sana sini!

Sembang dgn hubby dia.

Aku gila penat jaga diaaaaaa!!!

Sangat brutal perempuan ini.

She was being herself all the time.

For you Achik,

You were the prettiest bride I`ve ever seen.

(Okay I`m lying..haha!)

But of coz you were the most sempoi-est!

Thank you for giving me the honour to serve you.

Gila aku penat okay!!

Hahaha.

Thank you for coming back into my life after 8 years.

I have always loved you even when you were not around.

I have always missed you when you were gone.

Thank you for coming back.

Thank you.

May you have a wonderful marriage life with the one you love.

May you be happily ever after.

P/S : Org kata kalau jadi pengapit 3 kali nanti tak kawen.

           Aku dah jadi 2 kali.

           Ada sapa2 nak panggil untuk kali ketiga?

           Aku nak buat experiment!

:: Owh Gerard Butler ::

Keje banyak jugak hari ni.

But I really wanna blog about my current obsession.

Mr Gerard Butler.

Last night I went out with my bestos friendos.

Hahaha.

That`s a weird term!

We wanted to watch Shrek 3.

But too bad the cinema was fully booked.

Shrek is always everyone`s fav.

But Mr BF.

Gila I dok ajak dia pegi.

Dia tanak jugak.

But he did give me a company for Shrek 2 anyway.

So didn’t get the tickets for Shrek 3.

We decided to watch Bounty Hunter instead.

I would not be getting the chance to watch with Mr BF.

Coz he is not into this lovey-dovey movies.

The Ugly Truth yang I nak tgk sgt2 pun tak pegi okay?!!

Back to Bounty Hunter.

I`ve got to watch my love on the silver screen again.

I`ve always love Gerald Butler.

Since I first watched him on P/S I Love You.

Gila lapanploh kali tengok.

Lapanploh dua kali nangis!!

Okay that was exaggerated!

This movie really did suit my taste.

I kan dalam hati ada taman.

Muka je garang.

It was a story of a divorce couple.

Milo Boyd played by my Abg Gerald was playful.

And hopelessly romantic!

Jennifer Anniston played Nicole sumthin-sumthin.

Hahaha takdak masa nak concentrate kat nama dia okay?!

Okay the synopsis is like this.

“Hapless bounty hunter Milo Boyd (Gerard Butler) jumps for joy at the prospect of tracking down his bail-skipping ex-wife Nicole Hurley (Jennifer Aniston), but gets a hard dose of reality when the... Hapless bounty hunter Milo Boyd (Gerard Butler) jumps for joy at the prospect of tracking down his bail-skipping ex-wife Nicole Hurley (Jennifer Aniston), but gets a hard dose of reality when the job proves tougher than anticipated. Every time Milo gets close to resourceful reporter Nicole, she gives him the slip. A high-profile murder has been committed, and Nicole is determined to stay out of jail long enough to crack the case. And she must be getting close, because now someone is trying to take them both out. They may not have been able to make marriage work, but if Milo and Nicole can just stay alive long enough to solve the murder, they might discover they're not such a bad team after all.”

Thanks to Rotten Tomatoes!

Almost at the end part.

I became extra crazy over Abg Gerald.

When a friend of theirs was shot.

He asked Nicole to stay put.

But Nicole was saying something.

He cut it off by saying

“ Baby I`ll be back!!”

Dia terlepas cakap actually.

Coz they were divorced kan?

Pedepukkkkkkk!!!

Hatiku jatuh ke lantai lagi.

Sangat la jiwang kan saya ini.

They eventually realized.

That they still loved each other.

And they got back together in the cells!

Semalam nak tido.

Dok teringat Abg Gerard.

Hari ni bangun tido.

Suprisingly I didn’t even think of Mr BF.

By the time I opened up my eyes.

I found myself smiling.

Thinking of.

Gerard Butler!!

:: Abang Polis ::

Last night.

Kene tahan dgn Abg Polis lagi.

Dalam tahun ni je dah bape kali kene.

Tapi paling tak bley blah mmg case smlm.

And masa Cik Putis dtg melawat Negara Nasik Kandaq ini.

Okay.

When Cik Putis was here.

We went to Batu Feringghi untuk mencuci mata.

And also to go to the night market.

On our way back.

There was a terrible jam.

Almost an hour.

So kitorang pun sambung la keje mengumpatsss bertukar-fikiran.

Then when we were at Miami Beach.

(Jangan tatau Penang ada Miami Beach okay!)

This was where Tsunami hit quite badly as well.

So we saw that there was a road block.

Fine la.

So I was driving mcm biasa la.

Bukannye saya bawak benda salah kan?

The police gave me a sign that I can go off.

So I drove off.

He came running to my car.

Tepuk2 Gaban bagai.

Asking me to stop.

So I stopped.

He came to the windscreen.

And saw Cik Putis.

Then he asked me to open up the boot.

Dia pi berdiri kat boot sambil tgk saya,bukan kereta.

Senyum2 pastu dia dtg balik and said

“Nak pegi mana ni?

Okay la bley balik dah”

Sgt bodoh!!!

Semalam.

After my yoga class.

I went for dinner with Mr BF.

After that he wanted to go to the bank.

So I made a move heading back home.

There was a jam again.

So I saw the road block.

Ada sorang abg polis yang hensem ini.

Looking at me from outside la.

He said I can go .

So I drove off.

Abg polis yg gemok kat depan plak asked me to stop by the side.

Mende pulak nih???

Then the handsome abg polis pulak yang dtg.

Mintak IC and license bagai.

Dok Tanya

“Nak pegi mana ni dik?

Sorang ke?

You ni org apa dik?

Muka tak mcm melayu.

Nama melayu.

You campur Hindustan ek?

Dah kawen ke?

Org Penang ni mahal sangat la dik.

Blab la blab la”

Aku layankan aje la.

Sbb tangan dok pegang handphone.

Dok sorok2 bawah peha yang besaq talam ni.

Skali dia bg balik IC & license.

“Okay la u bley balik dah.”

So I asked

“Eh apsal saya kene tahan ek?”

Tau apa abg polis ensem tu cakapppp????

“Tu la sapa soh chantek??”

Sambil memandang aku dgn muka gatai.

Bongoks kot muka kelabu mcm aku pun ko nak kata chantek.
Terus aku blah!!!

Sangat bodo skali lagi!

On the way back after that.

Mr BF called up

“Oii..syok Nampak dok sembang senyum2 kat Abg Polis?”

I asked

“U saw?”

Lalu dia berkata

“Yea u were flirting u didn’t even see me passing by”

Oupsss!!

Aku dok cover handphone kot!!

Then I called up to Cik Putis.

"Weis aku kene tahan polis lagi!"

 Cik Putis gelak lalu bertanya

"Ko pakai skirt pendek lagi ke?"

Hampes laaa!

:: Suratan Atau Kebetulan? ::

Hey Love!

Today is abit boring.
Maybe because I have finished up most of the things.
But hold on.
Most of the things dont mean everything!
Hehe.
Baiklah saya mengaku.
Saya malas hari ini.
Tapi saya buat keje banyak dah tadi.
Ye lah ye lah.

Anyway.
I am kinda worried over something.
I have a Malay ex bf.
Dia la manusia yang buat saya serik dgn lelaki melayu.
We broke up like ages ago.
Should be more than 4 years now.
Sangat cepat masa berjalan.

After we broke up.
We have never bumped into each other.
At all.
But he came once to pick my bro up for a movie.
I didn`t really speak to him tho.
After that we just talked on the phone.
Once in a blue moon.


Saya ada nampak kat FB dia yang saya curi2 tgk.
Gatai kan?!
Anyway.
Dia letak pic froggy!

Dok kata rindu Froggy.
Sebab dah dekat 3 tahun tak tgk.
Dia dok buat pasrah la sangat.
Dia tatau kira ke dah 4 years???
Anyway this froggy is my 21st bday gift from him.

Then we have never met again.
But lately.
Saya selalu nampak dia!
Started from the midnight movie that me & Mr BF decided to watch.
Iron Man II.

Me and Mr BF never liked watching midnite movie.
We prefer to sleep on Saturday night.
Lalala!
Movies we watched usually start at 9plus.
But that one day.
Mr BF had something up with the family.
So we decided to watch at midnight.
Mr BF wanted to go to the gents.
So I went in alone first.
Masuk je cinema I knew someone was looking at me.
Till I got to our seats.

Bila tgk je nampak Incik X-Man sdgn memandang dgn pandangan mata sayu.
Laju2 saya pandang kat tempat lain u olls!!
When Mr BF came in.
Lagi la saya nampak Incik X-Man memandang dan tertunduk.
Nyampah pula saya.
Oups!

And lately.
Slalu nampak dia.
Memang nampak ye bukan terbayang!
While driving.
While eating.
While shopping.

But usually I just pretended like I never did see him.
Tadi saya nampak dia comment kat 1 FB status.
Ada org tu kata  
"Jangan sesekali mengucapkan selamat tinggal jika kamu masih mahu mencuba. Jangan sesekali menyerah jika kamu masih merasa sanggup. Jangan sesekali mengatakan kamu tidak mencintainya lagi jika kamu masih tidak dapat melupakannya...."

Skali Incik X-Man commented

"katakan saja kamu tidak mcintainya lagi, jika hati dan perasaan kamu tidak ada didalam hatinya,lupakan saja aggaplah ia sebagai kenangan.."

Saya tatau kenapa saya gatai pi tgk!
Dah la lately asyik jumpa dia.
Nyampah pun ada!
But something triggered my mind.

1 - Awatkah tak penah nampak dia dgn pompuan?
     Masa ada aku dolu berlambak pompuan dia angkut!!
     Taubat ke kena HIV?
     Hish aku nih!!!

2 - Jangan la jodoh aku dgn diaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!
     Awat slalu jumpa dia nihhhhhhhh?????

Mak takot u olls!!

P/S : Robert Downey Jr is hawttt!!