:: Bila Saya Nak Kawen ? ::

Entry hari ini adalah rojak.

Perasaan bercampur baur.

Just too many things are running on my mind.

At times I find myself tearing for abit.

Meroyan is my middle name.

Hahaha.

But nauzubillah mintak dijauhkan la.

Takot betul2 kene kang .

Mampos!!

Been having this intention of putting up an entry of this.

KAWEN.

Lately loads of friends have ended their single mingle lives.

Just too many of them.

Seronok tgk kawan2 naik pelamin.

Chantek2 di hari kawen.

And of all the wedding I have attended.

Only once I felt like

“OMG..when will my time comes?”

Like.

Honestly!

Haha.

That was on Zulia`s wedding.

Sometime last year.

The rest of the weddings.

I felt like.

Takot gile arrrr  tgk org kawen!!

Having a non-Muslim BF.

I would say that marriage is not something easy.

With my surroundings.

Where I see loads of ppl I love being cheated by their partners.

I feel extremely scared.

And honestly at times.

I feel very grateful that I am not married.

Plus.

There is seriously no plan for marriage for me and Mr BF.

Mr BF is definitely not looking into marriage for now.

And so do I.

I think.

Coz honestly.

I seriously think that he`s not the one for me.

Marriage wise.

And he knows that too.

Haha complicated but that`s the fact.

We`ll just go with the flow.

On the other hand.

Papa has been brainwashing Mama.

Saying that Mama was the one.

Who conditioned the kids` minds not to get married.

Papa has been asking me on when will I get married.

Just because I have been attending my friends` weddings with them.

Most of my friends used to lepak at my place.

And they`re more like a family.

So Papa dok teringin la nak dapat menantu jugak.

Worse was during Achik`s wedding la.

Papa and mama looked at me dgn penuh syahdu atas pelamin tu.

Tapi bukan aku yg kawen.

Aku pengapit je.

Achik sempoi yang kawen.

Achik dgn bestnya dok lambai2 kat Mama.

Bungoks la hang Chik!

Cam nak terajang owh masa tu.

Papa aku syahdu tau tak??

Hehehe.

So that morning when Mama called me up.

Saying Papa cakap

“Kalau Na tak kawen.

Nanti dia dah tua.

Mama and Papa dah tak de.

Sapa nak jaga dia?

Skarang boleh la sakit pening balik sini.

Kalau kita dah tak de Na mcm mana?

Dia sorang je anak pompuan kita.”

Gila aku nangis okayyyyy!!

Walaupun aku tau Papa tu propah je.

Dia nak menantu yg betulnya.

Terdiam je aku masa Mama dok cite.

She even said sorry if she was the one who conditioned me this way.

I told her that it was not her fault.

At all.

It was genuinely my own feelings.

Tapi takkan nak gitau Mama.

“Mama Na dgn Mr BF takkan kawen.
Kami tanak kawen.”

Meroyan Mama aku kang!

So I texted Papa.

Telling him to be patient.

“Kalau ada jodoh nanti adalah”.

Jawapan artist tu!!

I told Papa that my time is just not here yet.

And I also told him not to worry.

Coz he`ll definitely get the chance to greet the guests.

At my wedding!

His reply was simple

“Okay, good that u think that way.”

I hope the day will come, Pa!

Ramai org slalu tanya.

“Bila nak kawen?”

Daripada nak bg jawapan yang dah slalu digunapakai.

Aku jawab

“Saya mmg nak kawen. Cuma tak de org nak kawen dgn saya”.

Boleh?

Hehehe.

Serious la dalam ati aku.

Aku nak kawen!

Tapi bukan sbb tak bley kawen dgn Mr BF je.

Banyak lagi sbb kenapa aku belum nak kawen.

But of coz la sbb utama adalah.

Aku belum ada calon.

:)

Aku baru 25 je pong.

Slalu aku gelakkan Ms D.

Sbb kene bebel ngan umi dan ayah dia.

Skani aku plak kene u olls!

But.

There`s one more thing that I am always excited at.

Much more better than marriage.

Having a baby that is.

Hahaha.

Aku gile kan?

I have always love babies.

The cute ones yea.

I don’t like yang mcm serabai tu.

Mr BF slalu kata aku suka discriminate budak2.

Hehehe.

Yea la dah yg dia tunjuk suma Masya Allah.

Macam Malaysia ni tak de air selama lapanploh tahun untuk mandi!

Since I was small.

I have always had this intention.

Of adopting a baby girl.

Simply because baby girl can be dressed up in so many ways.

Plus all the accessories.

OMG I just want a baby!!

Tanak kawen pun tak pe.

Nak jugak jadi mcm kak Angie.

And I teared reading this blog.

When I read the story of how her baby boy was born.

And so forth.

Haizzz bestnya ada baby.

Tapi mcm mana nak ada baby.

Kalau diri sendiri tak terjaga?

Lapar.

Balik umah Mama.

Bosan.

Balik umah Mama.

Baju kotor.

Balik umah Mama.

Gado dgn Mr BF.

Balik umah Mama.

Haiiii la badan.

Haiiii la nyawa.