:: K.A.N.T.O.I ::

Chill.
No one kantois.( Pardon my mang-lish)
This is my current obsession.
I do not know much about the existence of the song.
All I know is.
When ever I call up to my youngest bro.
Who is only 12 years old.
I will enjoy this tune as his caller ring tone.
Quite entertaining.
Same goes to the calls I make to a friend.
The so-tak-berapa-nak-bright Mr Brightside.

And when I get to know that the talented singer is actually a Malaysian.
Aku rasa bangga!
(Dan dan bangga bila ada benda best.
Bila tak best terus kata
"Aku nak migrate lah!")
Dasar!

So sit back and relax.
And enjoy yourself with this wonderful tune and its lyrics.

K.A.N.T.O.I



Semalam I called you.
You tak answer.
You kata you keluar.
Pergi Dinner.

You kata you keluar.
Dengan kawan you.
But when I called Tommy.
He said it wasn`t true.

So I drove my car.
Pergi Damansara.
Tommy kata may be you tengok bola.
Tapi bila I sampai you.
You tak ada.
Lagilah I jadi gila!

So I called and called sampai you answer.
You kata "Sorry sayang tadi I tak dengar".
"My phone was on silent. I was at the gym"
Tapi latar belakang suara perempuan lain!

Sudahlah sayang I don`t believe you.
I`ve always known your words were never true.
Why am I with you - I pun tak tahu.
No wonderlah my friends pun tak suka you.

So I guess that`s the end of our story.
Akhir kata she accept his apology.
Tapi last-last kita dapat tahu.
She was cheating too.
With her ex-boyfriend`s best friend-
Tommy.
Kantoiiii.

P/S : Lady of Leisure, sorry baru terperasan you pun buat entry pasal lagu.Tersama pulak.

L.O.V.E

:: Bukan Lelaki Melayu ::

Reading the tittle itself might make you feel the heat.
But I don`t have any intention of putting on fire on anyone`s seat.
I really don`t.

The idea of putting is entry up.
Is because I feel like terpanggil-panggil untuk menulis.
Terlambai-lambai dah aku tgk Bloggy memanggil aku untuk dtg.
Since I read an entry posted by a good friend.
Not angry about it.
Not pissed.
May be the entry is not meant for me.

Tapi tipu lah kalau aku kata aku tak terasa langsung dgn isi entry berkenaan.
But I do respect her for her opinion.
She has the right to voice out what she thinks is right.
But it could be a bit filtered.
For the sensitivity of the plural societies here in our country.
I think.
But again.
It is a democratic country.
She is free to express any of her thoughts out.
After all.
It is her blog.
It is her territory.
And by having this entry up.
It doesn`t mean that I will have any issue with her.
Seronok jugak sekali sekala bertukar fikiran.
What ever it is.
She is always a good friend of mine.

*smile*.

She condemns Malay girls who don`t fancy dating Malay men.
For she thinks Malay men have everything it takes to be "Jejaka Idaman".
She condemns those perempuan Melayu yang mengagungkan lelaki berbangsa asing.
Lines quote by her
"Buat apa mengagungkan lelaki bangsa lain?
Belum tentu keindahan yang kau kecapi sekarang akan berkekalan selamanya."
I would say.
She has a point there.
What ever you have now.
Is not guaranteed that you will have it for eternity.
Fair enough.

But.
Is there a guarantee that by dating a Malay man.
You would be happily ever after?
Like those fairy tales we watch on that talking square box at home?
I am afraid that there is no warranty card attached to those Malay men when they come into ourlives.
Forgive me if what ever I say here hurt anyone.
I am just stating out my points of view.

I don`t date a Malay man.
For some reasons.
I was cheated by a Malay BF of 6 years with few Malay girls.
He might have his own reason for doing so.
Perhaps this Malay girl he was dating was not good enough for him.
*smile*
Papa had some other women in his life and neglects Mama.
Uncles cheated on aunties like trillions times.
Girlfriends cheated by their Malay boyfriends like countless times.
May be I have the fear in me.
Or may be I am so fed up with things.
You know what your ex bf has done to you,too.

I never say that non-Malay men are all good and nice.
That they could marry and be faithful till they die.
I don`t even say that they are perfect.
Neither do I say that Malay men are not good too.
Perfect.
Nobody is.
Just because I don`t like them.
It doesn`t mean that they are not appealing for others.
People do have their own preferences.
Aku suka makan sushi.
Engkau suka makan nasik.
Tak sama jugak kan citarasa kita?
Tapi itu tak bermakna aku lupa siapa aku.
Dan dari mana aku datang.

May be because I personally come from a family with some mix marriages.
I am not really into Malay chaps.
Or may be for the facts that they don`t turn me on!

:: F.R.I.E.N.D.S.::

My first early Saturday morning.
I am at work.
The last time I worked on Saturday was like 3 years back.
When I was with "B" company.
I miss some colleagues back there.
But frankly speaking.
No company could replace "C" company.
The colleagues there are super awesome!!

Started my day with this very much lazy berkobar-kobar feeling.
Boiled water for breakfast.
To see the water was no longer in the kettle.
Before I even prepare my breakfast.
Thanks to Halimah Jongang.
She poured the water into the warm water container.
After she prepared drinks for her and her beloved gemok BF.
Without even boiling the water back for me.
Then she could buat muka babi pretend like nothing happened.
When I was boiling the water again.
You see.
What a biatch wonderful housemate she is?!
Macam mana la aku tak rasa nak maki peluk cium je dia ari2?
Eeeee.
Nak je aku tembak kat dahi and gigi dia kuat2!!
Dushummmmm!!
Dushummmmmmmm!!!
I forgive my thought.
I forgive.
Dear God.
Please handle this one creature of yours.
For me.
I don`t need her to be nice to me.
But I would be rather happy if she doesn`t do anything.
That irritates me.

Came to work.
Was lazying around working hard.
I saw a friend online on her FB.
Her name is Sabariah (juga bukan nama sebenar).
So okay.
I gave her a buzz.
I asked
"Babe..ayah ko dah sihat ke?
Dah kuar spital?"
You know what was her answer?
"Yea aku tau.
Aku tau.
Aku tak bayar utang ko lagi!"
Berderau darah mak,u olls!!
Am I that bad?
Then I said
"Thank you.
It seems like you know me very well"
She said
"You`re very sensitive nowadays"
(This SENSITIVE word reminds me of Mr BF!!!!)
Again.
Salah aku lagi?!

Well this was what happened.
Few months back.
She called me up.
Sounded very sad.
She said
"Aku nak pinjam duit.
Kete aku rosak.
Tak de duit nak repair.
Aku nak kene balik Seremban"
I was not having cash by that time.
Coz Gaban was just out.
So I said.
"Ko tunggu.
Aku tanya Mr BF kalau dia bley bg dolu."
So I called up to Mr BF.
He said
"Owh ye ke?
Tak pe la kita pun penah susah.
Okay I transfer"
So okay lah.
He transfered.
And I never asked when will she pay back.
Coz I am so used to her.
We were very close for more than 11 years.
And Mr BF received the money back after 2-3 weeks.

After a month or so.
I received a call again.
This time she said
"Ko dah mkn ke?
Aku lapar.
Tak de duit nak mkn.
Aku makan keropok je dah 2-3 ari!"
Me being me.
Aku kesian la org tak makan.
I thought by me helping her.
One day others could help me or my family.
In case anything bad were to happen.
Na`uzubillah hi min zaliq.
Touch wood.
But my intention was to help out.
I told her.
"Aku tak de banyak sbb aku slalu travel.
Aku bagi ko banyak ni.
Tapi month end ko kene bayar balik sbb aku nak guna."
But a month after.
I didn`t get any call or text from her.
I was okay thinking she might not have money.
Then I saw her FB.
Someone special in her life actually said this
"Thanks Sabariah blanje I mkn smlm.
Bawak I tgk wayang!"
I was like.

"WTF????!!!!"

I texted her.
Baik aku tanya depan2 rather than aku pi ngata blakang.
She was unhappy.
She said
"Sume org tuduh aku.
Korang tau tak duit tu duit yang dia bagi aku?
Aku blanja dia balik sbb aku tanak amik duit dia!"
Pulak?!!
Aku plak kene marah?!
Well okay then.
No prob.

Another month passed by.
She still didn`t pay me back.
And I lost my purse during my holiday with my family in KL.
With some amount of cash inside.
(No entry about this as I don`t wana think of it anymore)
So I texted her saying that if she has extra disposable money.
Please bank in for me as I was broke.
She said okay and will bank in when she was free.
Coz she has some shoots.
Owh she`s working in a well-known production company.
But she never did transfer it back.
And did not bother to tell.

One day.
I saw some amount of money in my account.
I texted her asking if she has banked in the money for me.
She said
"Aku dah terpakai duit ko.
Ayah aku masuk spital."
I did not mind at all.
All I said was a single
"Okay"
Then I got to know that the money was banked in by Cik Putis for some business purpose.
Ececehhhhhh!!
Then she was gone again.
And the story continued with what I have told you earlier in this entry.

What has happened to the world?
Is there none of us here that has a heart to feel others?
Or if none has a heart.
None has brain as well?
Aku buat apa kat korang?
Duit korang sesen pun aku tak amik!
Barang korang aku tak kacau!!
Ape case ko nak salahkan aku plak kalau aku sensitive?!!!

:: Halimah Jongang ::

Salam Friday,Bloggy!!

5th day at work.
So far so good.
Everything is going on very smoothly.
Relationship with Mr MD is getting better.
Same goes to other colleagues.
This field I am in now is very interesting.
I hope to see myself being someone in few years time.
Insya Allah.

Today I wanna tell about my psychopath beloved housemate.
Owh yea.
I have been staying out of my parents` house for more than 2 years now.
Renting an apartment with a friend.
There used to be 3 of us in the place.
Me, Rogayah (bkn nama sebenar) and Halimah Jongang(juga bukan nama sebenar).
Rogayah is a good friend of mine back in school.
A very famous girls` school in my negara nasik kandaq.
While Halimah Jongang is Rogayah`s college mate.
Rogayah had pulled out coz of a missunderstanding.
She is now staying else where.
Thanks to Halimah Jongang for making us apart.
But me and Rogayah had confronted each other without Halimah Jongang`s knowledge.
We`re now good friends again.
But this story is not about Rogayah.
I wanna tell you about Halimah Jongang.
By the way.
Please meet my beloved housemate.

This is Halimah Jongang.
The guy in the yellow shirt is her BF.
Halimah Jongang is a freak.
Why do I say that?
Coz she is a self-centered person.
She can cook and cause a disaster in the kitchen.
And she can leave everything like that until she feels like cleaning up.
Sometimes she doesn`t even wash the rice cooker or the frying pan for few days.
I used to wash for her few times but I stopped after she sent me a text saying
"Too much if giving in already.No one is helping me to take a good care of the house!"
When I told her that I washed her left overs.
She asked me
"When did you wash for me?I washed by my own!"
I think she walks to the kitchen and start cleaning up till everything is done.
IN HER SLEEP!

Halimah Jongang is very envious.
She is jealous of everything others have.
No kidding.
Today I buy a pack of cornflakes.
Tomorrow I see the same thing in her cupboard.
I buy some cheap things she never use.
She comes and ask me
"Baru belajar pakai ke?!"
And I will see her having the same stuff after sometimes.

On my back.
She goes telling loads of bad things about me.
To Rogayah.
Thinking that Rogayah and me will never be friends again.
She collects loads of updates about Rogayah`s life.
And come home to me gossiping about Rogayah.
And this happens most of the times.
*smile*.
Aku akan masuk tinge kiri kuar tinge kanan!

Halimah Jongang envies Rogayah`s achievements.
Coz Rogayah is an Operation Mgr of a fitness center.
While Halimah Jongang is still job-hopping.
Thinking that one day she will be a financial controller of kedai pakdollah Microsoft.
Halimah punches her palm few times.
Macam gangster tumbuk tangan sendiri sbb geram kat org tu!
Being sgt tak puas ati gila not very happy of what Rogayah has.
On the other hand.
Halimah Jongang goes to Rogayah.
Telling that
"Hang tau tak?Mak cik meroyan tu skani dah keja bla bla bla.
Company bagi dia bla bla bla bla.
Dia slalu outstation kat bla bla bla."

I know Halimah Jongang is jealous of me too.
Coz she always tell me that she wants a job that she can always pack up her luggage.
Travel here and there to meet important people.
That she wants to be a decision maker of a big corporation.
But sadly I have something that she doesn`t.
She ends up working at a call center.
Even though she has a degree.
I know she hates me.

I am not a good person either.
I have my flaws.
I have my scars.
I cant be right all the time.
Nothing is great about me.
But I never have any bad intention towards her.
There are loads of things done by her and her BF.
I just don`t bother.
I avoid her most of the times.
When her BF is in.
She will show perangai babi attitude towards me.
But when the BF is out.
She will kaypo2 come to me and start asking questions.
Or gossip about Rogayah.
I`ll just listen then blah!
Then the BF comes back.
She will pretend like she never talks to me.
Owh yea.
The BF used to be my good friend.
But now he has become the twin of Halimah Jongang`s.
*smile again*.

The purpose of writing this entry.
Is not to gossip about Halimah Jongang.
Even though yea I actually gossip about her.
Muahahahah!!
But to tell Halimah Jongang something I can never do.

Dear Halimah Jongang,
I used to hate you.
I don`t like looking at your face.
You just make me vomit blood everyday.
But in my heart.
I am clearing all this hatred towards you.
I am trying my best.
To forget all the bad things you have done to me.
And if there is anything I do that hurts you.
Please do forgive me.
I need some peace.
In my own home.

:: Romantic? ::

Ohaiyo gozaimas,bloggy!

I am at work.
Still having fever.
It has been a week now.
But it doesn`t seem to be improving.
I get very cold at night.
Coughing like I am gonna die of TB.
And I get super-duper body ache in the morning.

But what do all that have to do with the title?
I dont even know.
Hehe.
But I wanna write about that particular word.
Romantic.

Are you a romantic person?
I am.
In fact I am hopelessly romantic I can be annoying.
Hehe.
Who doesn`t like being spoiled by their loved ones?
Who doesn`t like being hugged?
Who doesn`t like holding hands while walking?
I do!
But some people don`t.
Well.
I don`t know if they really don`t.
But yea they don`t show that they do.

Despite having probs between them.
Mama and papa still do walk together holding hands.
At times.
Even when we are there together.

And I see loads of couples do the same.
Here and there.
In real life.
And the movies.
I watch a malay series.
Called AdaMaya on TV3.

I envy them.
Adam played by Sein of Ruffedge is hopelessly romantic.
Gila aku sukaaaaa!!
Sehingga menggigit jari.

But my other half is totally different.
He is not romantic.
At all!
I mean not in the public.
He doesn`t even hold my hand when we walk.

He walks his way and I walk mine.
I miss those days when we first started up.
The first few months were heaven!
Is it really true when people say.
"Tak dapat lagi tak pe la.
Dah dapatttt..abis!"

Well.
Perhaps.
Hehe.
Every time I hold his hand.
He will let go after few seconds.
Unless we are crossing the road.

                                           Sdg melintas

After we get to the other side.
He lets go again.

                                           Selepas melintas

Saya pasrah.
Huhu.
I know he loves me.
I know he cares.
He is with me every single day.
But I don`t know why he just doesn`t show it no longer.
Bosan ke?
Aku ni manja nak mampos.
Clingy kot?
But I think it`s better for him not to be romantic with me.
Rather than cheating on me!
Adakah ayat di atas untuk menyedapkan hati?
Entahlah!

P/S: This entry is not out of anger or so much of pasrah-ness.
        Just letting some feelings out.
        No intention of hurting or pointing bad things about anyone.
        At all.

:: LittleThings In Life That Make Me Happy ::

Things have been going on smoothly for the past few days.
I am loads calmer (except for the night aku hempas pintu Gaban kuat2 sbb bengang kat Mr BF!)
Sian Gaban.
Tell you story about Gaban later.
I dont know why but I feel like writing about some little things in life that make me happy.

1st.
Introducing the most handsome-nest car in the whole wide world.
Gaban.

Gaban is my beloved kereta kecil warna silver.
He is a good car and I often talk to him in the morning.
He drives me everywhere in Malaysia!!
Sometimes I do feel afraid that one day he suddenly answer me.
Mati terkejut la hamba!
2nd.
Rainbow.

Since I was small little cute girl yang sgt chantek.
I would be very happy when I encounter a rainbow in the sky.
A rainbow always made my day and it still does.
All the time.
Perhaps it was developed dgn jayanya when I was a baby.
Mama said I always loved to watch Care Bears.
Hehehe.

3rd.
Books.

I just loveeeee books!!
When I was at the age of 3-4.
Mama used to buy loads of colourful books for me.
I can still remember.
I had Snow White.
Rapunzel.
Sang Kancil dtg beramai-ramai mengadap Sultan Fir`aunnnn.
Dan banyak lagi!!
I still read till today coz of the influence of great people surrounding me.
Like Ms D and Mr BF.
I love everything Ms D reads but most of Mr BF`s books are about business.
Bosan la kdg2 u olls!

4th.
This is suppose to be at no.1.
Tapi saja la letak lambat2 sket.
Hehehe.
Shoesssssssssssssssssss!!!

God knows how many pairs of shoes do I have.
Loads have been given away to people to need them the most.
Alasan!
Sebenarnye aku yg tak pakai.
Huhuhu.
I could sleep with my shoes I am telling you!!!
Biar sakit kaki.
Jangan sakit hati.
Asalkan cun dan sexy.

5th.
Arm candies.

I could die for them.
I have loads of handbags coz I like changing them from time to time.
Niat di hati nak beli Coach la,LV la.
Tapi siapa lah saya ini.
Sangat tidak mampu.
Huhuhu.
Mampu beli Charles & Keith je pong.
But I still love handbags loads n loads n loadssss!!!


Sekian dolu buat masa ini.
Jangan lah malu2 memilih hadiah harijadi saya tidak lama lagi.
P/S : BFF,I purposely make it sound like someone (for the bday part).
         Jadik x?


L.O.V.E

:: Albino Peacock ::

Heya Bloggy,

Today is my 3rd day at work.
So far everything is going on very well.
Becoz my workstation is not ready yet.
I am placed in a room next to my MD.
Gile ko org nak dtg jumpe aku kene ketuk2 pintu bagai.
Masuk2 je terus mcm
"Ms ****,this is the document"
"Ms ****,is everything okay?"
And all sort of things in the world lah!

At first I was like
"Fuiyooooo..boleh feel2 mcm boss nih!"
Tetiba sgt lah riak!
Bak kata pepatah,
Org tamak selalu rugi,bagai anjing dgn bayang2.
Can I relate to that?
Well,ntah.
Muahahaha.
But I can only berangan nak mampos till the day the renovation is done.
Huhuhu.

So.
I was given my 1st big job by Mr MD yesterday.
Not a big job at all actually.
But due to my bangang-ness yang melampau towards the job I am doing now.
I would say it was quite big as I have never done anything like this before.
Berpinau mata cekk!!
It was all settled in the morning and has been submitted for approval.
Mak nervous you ollsssss!!(Sila baca bersama idgham yang panjang mcm pondan buat!)
Apa la boss nak kata kan?
Over la aku ni!!
Suke ati aku la.
Blog aku kan?
Muahahaha gelak syaitonnn.

Well actually the update today was supposed to be about the most fav animal of mine.
In my previous entry that me and Mr BF went to the national zoo.
I have mentioned about an animal that I always wish I could adopt.
Biarpun aku ini takot dgn semua benda berbulu kecuali Mr BF.
Ouppsss!!

Statement yang tak patut kuar.
Maafkan saya!

Back to the story.
This morning when I logged on to my personal email.
I found a very interesting email forwarded by Shanono.
It was about an Albino Peacock.
She looked sooooo damn amazing in the pics.
And my eyes were wide opened.
Terbeliak mcm bola golf walaupun sebelum tu mata mcm idup segan mati tak mahu.

Chantek kan dia??!!!
Teringat plak kat White Queen dlm cite Alice in Wonderland.
That`s the only update for now I think.
Lalalala.

L.O.V.E

:: Announcement ::

Mengumumkan pertukaran URL blog ini kepada ..

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Maka dgn itu.
Aku sudah kehilangan sume comments yang korang tinggalkan.
Kepada sesiapa yg berkenaan.
You know what to do!

:: Confession of A Shopaholic ::

It was a title of a very famous girls book.
Written by the most humorous author of my life;Sophie Kinsella.
That this movie was brought over to the huge silver screens around the globe.
Sophie Kinsella;YOU`RE THE BOMB!
You made me laugh when I was in tears.

Am not really sure of the purpose of putting this entry up.
Whether am gonna write about the books of hers,the movie.
Or the special someone in my life that had actually introduced this wonderful author to me.
(Disclaimer : Buku dia yek,bukan orangnye.)

When I was 19.
I got to know few fun ladies from a forum.
Thanks to that wonderful forum loads that we`re all still in contacts till this very day.
It`s like 6 years already but I am still sweet and sexy 19.
Guess I have always had the time machine with me.

Well coming back to the story.
This was where I got to know BFF,Cik Putis, and some other great girls.
Owh mind me,BFF was no longer a girl by then.
Muahahaha.
One of the great girls was Ms D.

She was a fun girl to lepak with.
We hanged out few times when I was in KL.
I`ve spent few nights at her place too.
Great family she`s having.

About Ms D.
She did quite much job-hopping like me too!
Muehehe.
When she was working in a publishing company.
She was crazy of the botakcheng macho; MAWI.
I even saw her on TV during AF final concert.
Right when Mawi was performing!!!
What a coincident.
Then when AF was done.
She got to know INA ; MAWI`s ex fiance.
Hahaha sib baik ang tak kawen ngan Mawi je D weis!!

Ms D was very sensitive.
She used to cry and run to the train station when her colleagues hurt her feelings.
She then would call me up crying and mumbling and again;
I couldn`t understand a single shit thing.
But I kept listening.

She was also my partner in crime when it comes to shopping.
In fact she still is.
We would MMS each other dari kejauhan macam lagu Sudirman.
Just to ask the opinions on what we were planning to buy.
Sometimes hoping to have one of us saying "Tak payah beli laaa..simpan je duit tu!!"
But normally what happened was the other way round.
We would grow tanduk on our heads bersama mata merah menyala dan saliva jatuh ke kaki.
We would tell each other "BELI JANGAN TAK BELI!!!!"
Not becoz we hated each other and we wanted each of us to be broke.
But becoz we simply loved each other that we wanted both to have the best.
Huahuahuahuahuaaaaa.
Mr BF was once said "Tu nak MMS pic kasut kat Ms D la tu!!"
Ala sume mende la kitorang MMS,atas bawah luar dalam!
Eh tak;luar sahaja kot.
Eh tak jugakkk!!


Too many things to be told about Ms D.
But the most that I wanted to tell is.
She was the one who introduced Sophie Kinsella`s books to me.
And I was always the cheapskate one.
I would borrow all the books from her.
And I would return only when I remembered.
There was a book that I had just returned to her last month.
That has been in my shelf for the past 3 years.
That was.

Hahaha.
Thanks loads Ms D for all the books.
And the love I have towards Sophie Kinsella is all becoz of you.
Owh yea.
There is one thing about Ms D that will never be forgotten by me and Mr BF.
Her tagline.
"Laaaa..ye ke????D lupeeeeeeee".

Simply becoz she always have sudden amnesia towards everything!!

P/S : I love you,Ms D.

:: Quickies ::

Bloggy Love!!!

I miss you sooo damn much!!!
It`s been like forever since I last updated you.
How have you been doin?
(Tanya2 skali dia jawab mampos aku!)

I have so much things to tell.
But if I were to start talking about it.
It will be an endless entry.
So below are some quick updates on what has happened.
And is happening.

• Today is my first day with F,my new company.

• I haven`t told Mr CEO & Mr Director that I am not going back to the previous company.

• My MD in F knows Mr CEO & Mr Director.Adehhh!!

• BFF is expecting.Alhamdulillah.(Biaq la dia jadi Australian.Muehehe)

• Hope to see the online shop to be up soon.

• Yoga class is getting exciting.

• Mr BF is getting better and better by times.Again,Alhamdulillah.

• Mama`s health is improving.(Thanks for your national`s secret,Mr BF.)

• My menstruation is on time!! Woohooo!!

• Cik Putih has gotten her increment.Sila jgn lupa bday gift saya.

• MAE`s 1 month bday was yesterday.Happy belated bday,MAE!!

• Jay is not well.He has pneumonia.God please help him up.He has to be recovered.(Menadah tangan sambil berdoa.)