:: Bee-You-Tee-Fool ::

Another boring day.

I am so sleepy now.

Thinking of having green tea in a bit.

Or should I just go for coffee instead?

It`s been a while since I had coffee in the office.

Fuhhh rasa mcm nak switch off lampu and tido bawah meja.

Heaven!

On the other hands.

Things have been goin on well so far.

I am glad I have becoming myself again.

I used to have lack of confidence of myself.

I used to think I was not pretty enough.

I used to think that I was not attractive.

I used to think that I was a really useless GF.

Call me stupid.

That`s who I was totally.

For about 3 years.

Thanks to my ex BF now.

Well let`s call him SW from now on :)

Enough of the negativities.

I am now a whole new different person.

Or probably I am back to who I was 3 years back.

I am happy.

I am energetic.

I am free!

I started to gain my confidence back.

I started to feel like I am bee-you-tee-fool again!

I started to see the glow on my skin.

I started to appreciate the curve of my body.

Not that I am being so self conscious.

But OMG I just love myself again!!

I just don’t know how to describe the happiness I feel now.

After all the years of insecurity.

Of emotional turbulences.

I am recovering fast.

I guess it shows that I was really hurt before.

I`ve learned great lessons from the relationship.

I`ve learned to put myself first.

I`ve learned not to let anyone belittle me.

I`ve learned not to allow myself to be blamed all the times.

And I`ve also learn that whoever doesn’t like the way I am can get lost!

I have to thank SW for all these.

And most of all.

I have to thank Mr M.

The Iranian guy.

I don’t care if I was not the only girl you talked to the other day.

But you`ve brought the confidence back in me.

Knowing that I am still attractive to others.