:: Nomad ::

Today I feel so relieved!!

Loads of things have been going on for the past few days.

I was exhausted till today.

And so far this morning has been better!

Hope things will be better again from now on.

I have been a nomad since Monday.

I have a home where I feel like I don’t belong.

I used to feel good when my landlady was away.

But since she came back donia saya menjadi gelap gulita.

I shall not tell you what had happened.

Coz I don’t want any of you to vomit blood.

And I don’t want you to get constipation too!

But I still want to tell that one of the things that had happened.

Was really something terribly awful.

Yang menyebabkan saya sembelit selama 5 hari.

Owh thank you my landlady.

Have you been wanting me to bond so much with my sisa buangan?

Argh!

Owh luckily today saya sudah membuang.

Sorry this entry mcm tak senonoh kan?

Yea dia dah bagi saya terkejut sampai 5 hari tak buleh beraks u olls!

Tu blom masuk lagi the list of Christmas gifts she`s been hinting to me.

I am so going crazy.

The condition of the house each time I come back home.

I just feel like killing myself.

I dunno why on earth do I always get stuck with some freaks!!

Or is it just me?

So I am in the midst of looking for a new place again.

Means again I have to spend the money I don’t have.

I have been sooo happy with my life even after I broke up.

I started to feel alive again.

I dunno why she has to come back and ruin everything.

God bless her.

I have to thank Mama & Mr SW for helping me out alot.

Merempat ntah ke mana2 la saya kalau dorang ni tak de.

Thank you for being there for me.

I can see that things are going on better with me and Mr SW after the break up.

I mean I can see us sitting down and talking like human would.

No more shouting and screaming and swearing.

Well, in a way.

It is good.

But I have to say that I know I am being emotional again now.

Not about the relationship anymore.

Tapi saya sangat pasrah dengan kerenah tuan tanah itu.

Dah la nak cari rumah bukannya senang.

I hope things will get better.

I really am praying.

On the other hand.

A younger cousin brother of mine is getting engaged on Sunday.

And apparently my parents will have to help out with the rombongan meminang.

Which also mean that I`ll have to be there.

Kalau tak Mama mesti buat muka.

And which also mean that I`ll be interrogated again.

“Bila nak kawen ni?

Awat tanak kawen?

Memilih sangat ke ni?”

I could see myself being stressed again.

Owh my god.

Can I just be happy for God`s sake?

                              handsome tak saya?