:: The Sigh ::

If I were to sigh every day.

It means that something is definitely wrong with me.

But if I were to keep it to myself.

One day I`ll break down real hard.

The critical level of cancer is not leading me to death, yet!

Hell, no!

I am not having cancer.

But so much of disappointments.

Accumulating by days are sooooo cancerous!

There isn`t any sparkles anymore.

Sometimes I wish I could be a priority.

Just by you looking at me.

And talking to me.

Like others would do.

I went all the way there.

Wanted to spend this extra lunch time with you.

But I had to wait.

You know why.

You were busy with something first.

:)

Then after we had lunch.

You went on doing your things.

If I complain.

You`ll ask.

What the hell do I expect from you, rite?

If I want to talk I could have started talking, rite?

I would expect a simple hug.

I would expect a peck on my cheek.

And I would expect you to tell me how I look ;)

I have so many people around me.

Noticing every single new thing I have.

(Okay now you`ll say because they are busy body)

But for me I feel appreciated.

I feel like they know something new about me.

But I can`t expect it from you.

You don`t even notice any new thing in me.

I know you told me once.

“You have so many new things and you don`t bother telling what you buy”.

Others do have interests in me.

But you.

This morning when I left for work.

I`ve told myself.

I surrender everything today.

God knows what`s the best for me.

And yet I am complaining here.

What to do?

I am trying hard not to say anything to you.

So this blog is where I always resort to.

Probably I shouldn`t have cancelled my lunch appointment after all.

I`d have some entertainment listening to her at least.

I will try not to say anything at all to you.

Just don’t force me to :)

But I hope you`d understand.

That I am a girl.

I have desires.

I have expectations.

I am writing this not solely to point finger at you.

You have your good qualities too.