:: The Stress & Being Grateful ::

Well.

I am finally back to the office.

And God knows how relieved I feel that I am here.

Hahaha those 2 days that I was off really made me feel like they were forever.

Slalu malas nak kerja tapi skrg hati asyik kata

“Kalau la ari ni masuk office!”

Owh myyyyyy.

Seronoknya masuk office dan membuat kerja sendiri.

Hati berbunga2 riang.

Macam poyo tak penah masuk office plak bunyinya.

Padahal berlambak je keje pending.

Well.

Let`s start with my new place.

Proses pemindahan was held on Saturday night.

Mr BF helped me out with everything.

Owh yea he managed to come back to Penang in the evening.

So off we went to my new place.

Unpacking the stuffs.

He left at about midnite.

So there I was.

Feeling excited looking at my new place.

I felt like I`ve brought the whole house to move there.

But ended up my small room looks like I don’t have anything much.

Hurm.

My landlady is a sweet Chinese lady.

She has a major spinal problem that even MRI couldn’t detect the cause.

But somehow she is so strong and still going on with life.

The only thing about her is that she tends to talk a lot.

A lot that you could find her talking for 3 hours non-stop if you don’t stop her.

But I do understand.

She was staying alone.

Her family abandoned her and think that she made up all the stories about her sickness.

And worse.

She is even separated from the husband and kids.

Well I shouldn’t be telling anything about her here.

But because I have to relate some things to this later.

So yea.

She tends to tell me a lot of grandmother`s stories.

Which I could understand because she has no one to talk to.

So when she has someone with her.

She gets excited that she could express her feelings out.

I don’t blame her.

But too much of it till I sleep late every night listening to her.

Causing me to be so stressed.

I didn’t have the heart to cut her off.

For I understand that we human need attention when we are sick and lonely.

So I kept listening.

But I had so little sleep and when I woke up in the morning I`d be listening to her again.

Till the time I had to see Mama.

For the whole day.

This is another thing.

Mama is stressed of something as well and it was my duty to entertain her and make her happy!

I would take her anywhere she would wanna go.

I`ll walk everywhere as long as she`s happy.

Not that I am making fuss out of it but sometimes I do feel very tired too.

Tetapi demi ibu yg seorang di dunia itu saya turutkan saja.

Mama pun banyak kali mintak maaf sbb menyusahkan saya.

Tapi sebagai anak takkan saya nak kata ibu saya itu menyusahkan?

I love her so much that I am willing to do anything for her.

Memikirkan bila balik rumah dalam keadaan yang sangat letih bersama mata yang sudah susah nak bukak.

Tetiba kene mendengar tuan tanah bercerita lagi.

I felt so stressed.

So I sat at the garden all alone before I went into the house.

I felt so stressed I called Mr BF and cry!!

Hahaha.

He suggested that I go back to my old place as the room is still mine till this month end.

I thought that was a good idea.

So I went into the house to find my landlady was in pain.

I didn’t have the heart to leave her alone.

And something was telling me to stay put.

So there I was again listening to her till at 12 I went back to my room.

I even told her I am also stressed with some problems that sometimes I won`t be able to spend so much time talking to her as usual.

Plus I finish work late every day.

I felt bad telling her that but I simply had to.

I had enough with Limah Jongs I can`t afford to have another.

I mean not that I won`t be talking to her at all but perhaps not up to 2-3 hours a day.

I am exhausted myself.

But secretly in my heart.

I am very grateful to God that despite all the problems I have in the world.

Mama is always around for me.

She`s the cause of my happiness eventhough aku slalu kene melawat 2-3 shopping malls sekali kuar.

But my landlady.

She is all alone by herself.

So much problems and sicknesses.

No company.

No love.

No attention.

But me.

I might not have a very good domestic life.

But I have all the companies I need.

I have a job.

I have a car to move around.

I have a family.

And today as I came in to work.

I was shocked to know about someone I know who had been robbed.

Siap kene kelar dgn parang kat leher and tangan.

Nasib baik tak putus urat!

And knowing that she has gone through so much of sh*ts in her life within this year.

Again I feel so grateful.

She broke up with her ex-bf.

She lived alone at a place.

Was jobless.

With loads of financial issues.

Her house was broken into.

All her electronic gadgets were gone.

And now.

When she`s slowly getting up.

She`s facing this trauma.

Owh God.

I always thought my life is so miserable.

But now I really have to be grateful of what I have.

I am.

Very thankful to God.

May the landlady and this someone I know be blessed.

Amin.

P/S : Right when I am writing this entry, Ms D comes up with a very good news that makes me smile.

        Congrats,girlfriend. I am so happy for you ;)