:: Today ::

Today.

I really feel like I have no boyfriend.

I don’t even know where he is.

He just doesn’t bother to text or call.

Too busy probably.

But will he be too busy to even tell me that he has landed?

That was yesterday.

And today?

Hurm.

I know one phone is out of battery and he didn’t take the charger along.

But what about another?

I don’t like having this feeling of not being appreciated.

Not that I want him to text me all the time.

But at least update me once a while.

I know he would tell me that he doesn`t even have to report to his mother.
Owh that is sooooo my boyfriend!
And he will say that I purposely wanna find fault.
Which is true.
I am always at fault.
He will also tell me that he is too tied up with things that a text would take up 2 hours of his precious time.
But if even if he goes outstation he still can`t be bothered to tell.
And if I have to follow his mood all the time.
He`ll text when he likes.
And dissapear when ever he wants.
Then don`t keep a girlfriend.
I am not a puppet!

But something really made me wonder.

He was away on Tuesday and he could text me all the while!
Texted me when he has left home to the aiport.
Reached airport.
Flight took off.
Flight landed.
Everything!!
Till he safely got back home.
Hurm.
If I were to ask about it he`ll say
"I was free by then".

I hate to have this feeling of not bein bothered.

Because once I feel like it`s gone.

Then it`s quite hard to come back.

Probably this is the feeling that he wants me to feel.

Fair enough.

You Mr.

Don`t expect me to be there when you need me.

And expect me to be on my own when you don’t need.

But hey.

Have you ever needed me anyway?